Day 5

Well, it's Friday. I succeeded in going 5 days (as of tonight) without junk food. I succeeded in not pigging out after the baby is asleep. I succeeded in losing a few pounds. And, most impressive of all, I succeeded in not buying poptarts today. Today is Friday and, six days out from grocery shopping, we're low on supplies (no bananas, no oatmeal, no leftovers, no bread) so I had nothing to bring with me for lunch. So, I approached the vending machine and instead of getting poptarts or snack cakes, I got some animal crackers. I know I'll still have a glycemic blast but at least no bad fats and a bit less sugar (and way fewer calories). Overall, I feel good. Less blobby. I have more energy. I'm not feeling run down, crappy and old like I did at the end of the chocolate/donut marathon weekend.

My big trick for avoiding the evening pig outs is cleaning after the baby goes to sleep. Last night, I scrubbed the kitchen floor before settling down to watch a dvd. It distracts me during my normal peak pig-out times, gives me a little exercise and a sense of accomplishment. And I feel so much better about life when the house is clean. This way, I don't spend the week thinking, oh God the bathroom is disgusting I'll have to clean it over the weekend. It gets cleaned during the week instead! Oh, it makes me feel so much better not to live in a pigsty. I can't describe the relief I feel. And so, it makes me less likely to seek fulfillment through candy.

Day 1

So, after a weekend of complete junk food indulgence (preceded by a week of slightly lower levels of JF consumption), I've reached a point where I know I need to tone it down. I'm almost 40 and I feel like crap. So, today I'm starting my new food-related life. Healthy choices and all. I need to get back in shape, eat well and (1) provide a good example for my son and (2) stay healthy so I live a long time for my son. The baby is a powerful motivator. I of course feel better about myself and about life when I feel physically fit. So, I'm reducing/eliminating processed foods, junkfood (both the sweet and salty kinds), high sugar foods, high sodium foods and high fat foods that I tend to eat in large quantities (peanut butter is the main target of this last group - healthy but not in such quantities as I eat it. I'm reducing the amount that I eat and increasing my exercise levels. O.K. Again, hopefully the blog will motivate me.